just had the most emotionally draining day ever. sounds like such a trivial thing to get upset over but i had an argument with my spanish teacher and she got so personal and deep and was like ‘you’re literally gonna fail this class everyone else is at a higher level than you’ and i just started crying and couldnt stop and then eventually we made up but then my mum rung me and was so cute like ‘we’re all so proud of you doll you’re doing so well’ and i’m trying so hard but it’s difficult here this isnt like doing a year abroad in sodding madrid im in one of the most dangerous countries in the world and i cant just go home for half term im a 17 hour flight away. plus my friend being depressed and ill is bringing my moral down so much i feel like ive done so much i cant do anymore i’ve tried so hard but this is my year too i have my own problems and if someone actively refuses to listen to my advice/accept my help then what can i do? i just feel so emotionally drained with everything today
GO BACK TO ENGLAND WHERE THERE ARE TEA BAGS AND NICE RED WINE AND NICE CHEESE LIKE FETA AND CAMEMBERT IF THATS HOW U SPELL IT AND HOT GUYS OMFG EVERYONE HERE IS LIKE 5’5 AND A MASSIVE PERVERT I JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO LONDON HUG MY CAT AND THEN GO TO BRISTOL AND BE WITH MY REAL FRIENDS OMG
realtalks though if i watched chris’s episode where he walks to uni naked and he lives on OUR ROAD that we lived on in second year i would have a nervous breakdown i think
and i’m watching jal’s episode for some reason…
am i watching series one skins on a comedown as if i couldnt miss bristol more!!
it’s breaking my heart to think i’ve got to leave this beautiful place and all my wonderful friends for a year soon. The fact that I’ll never see a lot of these people again makes me feel overwhelmed with sadness and the past year and a half have gone by in a heartbeat…never could have imagined I would fall in love with this city so much. Honestly feels like yesterday that i got here…peace
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK YOURE MEANT TO DO WHEN YOU LITERALLY CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE
omgaaah i dunno what to do i need advice i feel so weird like 16 years old again
it’s not Christmas until our family fights over nothing and someone storms away yelling “merry fucking Christmas”
but i literally cant believe that this time next year im gonna be living in mexico/colombia and then brazil for a whole year. insane.
why do i always fuck up so bad
I wish I could have an apology. I wish you hadn’t spoken to me the way you did. I wish you were who I thought you were. I feel like such a fucking idiot and it makes it hard to be strong when you constantly doubt yourself because someone could be so horrible to you. I literally thought you were such a sweet guy and you’re so vile and I just wonder how I could have misjudged you so badly.
why do all the best things have to happen right at the end of term:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
i know i never post on here but just need to write all this shit somewhere…like basically im finding uni so hard, no one told me how difficult it was gonna be…i feel like im not myself at all, i feel so ill and drained all the time, people seem to be having such an amazing time, and i am too, but sometimes everything gets too much and i just break down in my room for ages which cant be normal! i miss my old life when i could just go to the pub with my friends and not have to meet all these sodding people all the time dressed like a fucking smurf! everyone’s just so nice i cant deal with it it’s all so overwhelming…sorry for the rant (not that anyone is reading this)